Confession: Jeffrey Kahler a Sinner
These are all the major sins that I have committed against the Lord God and/or against the laws of the United States of America (State of Hawaii and/or Federal laws):
1. Bearing false witness: To lie, to pretend, or to cheat anybody else out on the truth of life’s circumstance or situation that was, is, or will be. It is one thing to be discrete and private about personal affairs and issues, but it is another to be secretive about bad behavior and conduct that is unbecoming of a righteous human being. I withheld the truth about my addiction to Heroin because I knew it was wrong and more so because I always thought that I would be able to quit on my own without anyone ever having to know about it. You can say that I am surely guilty of bearing false witness for the person that I was made out to be because I was not that person; I was a drug addict that needed to get his life straight and I should have not continued on living a lie to the people around him. Those people primarily included my girlfriend, my immediate family members, and my co-workers.
2. Promotion of a detrimental drug: I picked up a charge called, “promotion of a detrimental drug in the 3rd degree.” But truly, I was promoting this drug because I was a daily feigning drug addict who in turn brought more and more attention to the sub-culture; I was promoting the drug and all that the sub-culture was about. I was an individual of society who was heading in the wrong and bad direction. I was breaking the law and the activity of using drugs could have and would have been a means of harsh criminal charges against me. For years I could have been busted for the use of Heroin; I had finally gotten busted in 2017 when I was given felony charges due to my assault on a law enforcement officer. The police officers made sure that I would pick up drug charges as well because I was obviously high on drugs and I had drugs in my possession at the time of my arrest. My drug charges were surely a long time coming; it was about time that I would ultimately get busted because I had not yet learned my lesson about how dangerous illegal drugs can be.
3. Stealing: When I ran out of money or had already spent my paycheck, petty theft, shoplifting, or taking money from loved ones became for me a common way to get the money I needed to buy my next dose of heroin. To be straight forward, I had stolen on many occasions. Several times I took money straight out of the wallets of my girlfriend, my father, and close friends like Misses and Mister Wong. Though shalt not steal; its written straight from God in the ten commandments that was given to Moses. I pray that the damage done on my accord for the financial difficulties that may have occurred to those I have wronged may be pacified.
4. Fraud: The desperation that follows a crazed and feigning heroin drug addict can be witnessed in so many ways. With no money or without anything of value to pawn or to trade, he/she would do just about anything to get a dose of heroin when he/she begins to feign after a long period of sobriety. There are countless ways that one can scam, cheat, or pretend to get the money you need to buy your next dose. I admit that yes, I was helping another drug addict to score so dope by breaking a federal law, and that law was broken the moment I helped to print out counterfeit United States currency. I did it; I tried to print out counterfeit bills that was intended to fake out some drug dealer somewhere in Honolulu. Anybody with a watchful eye would have been able to spot that this fake money was fake because the money did not look anything close to what is
real, but nevertheless, I broke a major law with the federal government by messing with their fiscal system.
5. Reckless endangerment: Most likely the one sin that I have the greatest remorse for committing is this one, reckless endangerment. I was a daily heroin drug addict for more than just a couple of years. Can you just imagine all the times that I drove around town while being completely high on Heroin or some type of mind-altering substance? It is
strictly a miracle that I did not seriously hurt or injure anybody. If I did hurt you or anybody that you know, please let me know. I will be there to offer my apologizes and my deepest condolences.
6. Violence and assault: I was involved in the drug sub-culture; that, added with the intoxication or the effect of being under the influence of a mind-altering drug came the occasional aggression, anger, and violent behavior that naturally followed. Drugs had led me to the assault charge that I caught when I intentionally hit the police officer back in June 2017. Drugs had led me to the various instances when I acted out in anger and aggression to whichever intolerable situation my life had become. The after effect of using or drinking often had me in a frenzy; leaving me hopeless against my frustrations and
irritations at the life I was living. I am terribly sorry to those that I may have hurt and to those that may have gotten caught in the crossfire of my injustices and crimes.
7. Idolatry: I was not exactly in worship of Heroin, but I treated this drug as if it was my master and God. This drug would be the center of my world. Every aspect of my life slowly became coordinated around my ability to be with my Heroin drug. For this sin, yes, call me guilty of idolatry. I should have never let this drug take control of my life like how it did. Today there is no idol, object, or thing that I worship and glorify. Today I glorify God and I worship only him. Today, I coordinate my every step around God because it is only where God is that I want to be, and it is only he that ultimately controls my destiny.
8. Adultery: I feel that this sin was important for me to point out because of how treacherous it can get to sleep around. Relationship status is an important aspect of one’s life that one should be sure to uphold. If I was single than you may see that in the way that I am around women, but if I am in a relationship, then you should be able to tell the difference as to how I conduct myself. I am guilty of this sin because I was not loyal and truthful about my intentions with other women during the time of my relationship with Emma.
